Hello dear readers,
It is very late and I can't sleep. I keep trying and trying but sleep just won't come to me. It's been happening a lot lately these past few months since he's been gone.
He is my Husband. My Sailor. My Soul-mate. My Best Friend. He is everything to me and more. But it's been a long hard road and it's only just now getting somewhat easier.
He wasn't always a sailor. In fact he's just now becoming one. Right now as we speak my Sailor is sleeping in a room with two other men. He will wake up and go to school and come back to a place where I can't go. He is in Chicago, IL. where he was for Navy boot camp and where he'll be until he comes home.
This bed is lonely. Sure my almost two year old son is sleeping next to me but there is still an emptiness. A void that only a husband can fill. But I wouldn't have it any other way right now. Because my Sailor is doing great things for our family.
You see we didn't always have a stable income. In fact, we hardly had an income at all but we managed. Our son never went without diapers or wipes or clothes ever. Sure, we as parents went without from time to time but he was more important. Taking care of him was more important that anything we may have wanted or needed but it just wasn't working.
Living in a trailer with my family wasn't working. Sharing a room with my then 14 year old sister wasn't working. Nothing about the situation was. So my Loserface did what he had to do. He walked down the street to our local recruitment center and he joined the Navy. He did it for our future. He did it for our son. He did it for us.
So yes, I may complain from time to time about my empty bed but believe me I'm still thankful. I'm very thankful for what my husband is doing for us and I'll continue to be thankful. I will never forget what he did to save our little family.
Never,
Amber
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